AM I JUST A NAME?!!!!!

You know when they talk about the enlightenment of Buddha , I always picturise him under a tree and suddenly acquiring the ring of aura around him. What If i tell you I had one such enlightenment? Strange , huh?! Well , I don't have a ring of aura around me , but as for now my "inner peace" is all tangled. Recently I was re-reading the book "Life is what you make it" by Preeti Shenoy and when one of this protagonist died in the plot , I suddenly had this brainwave. Suddenly , If I was to die a day , without a single warning , I imagined what it would be like. I know it is very dumb , but still , you know , it sort of stuck into my mind and I couldn't escape. Well , of course , being the single daughter of my parents , it is going to leave them both depressed and distraught initially. My dad is going to miss his "favorite Maths and Physics pupil" (I'm kidding!!!! You know how much I love your classes!) and my mom her daily secret keeper. But eventually they will come around and learn to move on. As for my friends , I believe they will miss me terribly in every possible way and scream their heads off. Aparna is going to miss her punch ball (I know you will!) , Gayathri her chatter box , Amanda her book maniac and others what not (Sorry about stopping here guys , otherwise it would take a bit long!) . But that will be for 2 to 3 months. After that , they too would have found out their punch ball , chatter box and book -maniac in some others. My teachers , my friends , my relatives would talk about myself being an excellent student , niece , daughter , friend , sister and how no one can take my place ever in their lives. Well , guess what? They are nothing but downright lies. All of them are going to move on and I'm going to fade from each of their memories every passing day. Well , thinking from my side , I feel bad thinking about how my bucket list is just going to remain a "list" and nothing more. How my untold crushes are going to wither away even before they started ( I know , its a disaster!). And for not telling my parents and friends about how much they mean to me and lots more. But most importantly , What am I going to leave here? A few flashing memories in someone's head? Or the things I left unsaid or had already used? I really wish to conduct a pre-funeral for myself if I knew when I was going to die , you know. Just out of curiosity , just to know what others think of me , so that I can treasure it forever in my life. All you have with you , IS THIS MOMENT . Make sure  you live that at your fullest. Make some epic mistakes , no one is going to hang you! Fall in love , make new friends , dream even more and more. And most importantly , never forget to leave your signature here , in this world , as a proof that a person like you existed once. The number of days you lived here doesn't matter at all. The number of memories and the imprints you leave in others hearts matter. Make sure that you just don't remain a name , but something even more. #after all life is beautiful#